Session 2 ~ Day 4: Why Idols?

Silence
As I am finishing up today's lesson about the quietness of God and how often I have allowed times of God's silence to convince me that God was not hearing me, listening to me, answering me in the ways that I thought would be best or in the time-frame that I thought would be most effective – how many times I, like the Israelites, have quickly turned to take action on my own behalf and say to myself, "Well, I guess it's all up to me now."

We are coming up on our 10 year wedding anniversary. We've been together for over 17 years and I am so very thankful for the man that God brought into my life so many years ago, then a boy, now my husband. A man who loves God, our family and me more than anything on this planet. What an amazing gift. So why have I tarried in allowing God to use my husband to be all that He created him to be? I can think of countless times over the past 10 years that I have refused to step aside and let my husband lead based solely on God's silence and my unwillingness to submit to God wanting my husband to be the protector and provider of our family.

This past year has been and continues to be a year we have enlisted ourselves in God's boot camp. A year of allowing God to discipline us in the areas we didn't trust in the past. In areas where we allowed our foolish impatience with God to get us into faithless traps. Traps that we have had to let God teach and reteach us how to climb out of with a death grip on Him and Him alone who saves. Yet, even now, I am finding it difficult and scary to step aside and fully and wholly trust God to have the power to provide and protect us and our family and use my husband as the conduit to do just that – protect and provide. Thanks be to God that my body is forcing me to do what is and has been God's will and just step aside, rest and let God shine in the gift He gave to me – my friend, my spiritual partner, my faith-filled example, my more-than-able to do all that God has prepared in advance for him to do – my husband.

Please pray that God will give me the strength to trust Him, even in His silence. That He will continue to be glorified in our lives and our faith in Him to provide and protect us. That He will be given the obedience, the space, the ground in both of us to raise us up to be all that He created us to be and live out all the potential He is more than willing and able to equip us to do in Christ.